Alright guys

I'm going to be gone for 4-6 weeks due to my retardation. I got a D in english, but after explaining to my mom why I got it, I'm still being grounded. Which means that I won't be allowed on the computer AT ALL during those 4-6 weeks, I can't get on the video games AT ALL during those 4-6 weeks, I can't get on to draw AT ALL during those 4-6 weeks

I'm going to try to be able to handle not getting on because I need to draw at least one thing, or sketch at least one thing on the computer in order to get through the day, but no one on the house understands that need and it's going to really drive me crazy. It will be hard too, because I know it will be awkward talking to some people again when I get back on. 4-6 weeks of being away can really change people

Plus, with not being able to speak to a certain someone both on the phone and on msn when we're not together at school, it's going to be extremely hard on me

I doubt I'll be able to pull this D up because my english teach is really hard on his grading, and when I was at a C, I couldn't even bring that up to a B no matter how hard I worked my ass off. I'll end up being grounded during the summer too, just you watch. My mother says that I am smart, and that she saw me get good grades a few years back in elementary school, but I think my mental thinking has gone down to a...not so good level. I don't know, but I'll try, at least to be able to get my priveledges back.

I don't count on myself though. If I couldn't think right during this whole school year, what makes me think that I can actually step it up and change?

Whatever

At least I can still listen to music

See you guys later